I want to open this post with a litany, say some hopefully meaningful stuff in the middle, then end with a meditation. It’s one of those sunny, warm, positive days where I feel like I can do anything. If any of you like science fiction, you may know a bit about Dune. For those of you who aren’t fans of science fiction, I redirect you here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dune_(novel). Within the Dune universe are the Bene Gesserit, a religious sisterhood whose members train their bodies and minds to obtain superhuman powers (thanks Wikipedia). The “litany against fear” was one of their chants to calm themselves when they faced fear:
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
We all experience fear. During COVID, this is probably the most fear many of us have ever felt consistently, but there’s power in facing our fear. There’s no right way to do it and there’s no set course of actions to take. We all have our own time and methods because all of our fears are different. But we gain something new within ourselves when we face our fears. Recently, I have experienced trust, patience, and grace. I have trusted myself more to be honest with my feelings. I have trusted my friends and extended family more to accept all of me without my attempts to filter myself. I have more patience with myself as well. One of my more major breakthroughs has been to ask myself what I would normally do before jumping to conclusions and careless actions. I put the situation back into the continuum of time and think. I slow down, do my best to keep things as light as possible, and let a lot of things go. I learned that in taking everything as seriously as I did, I created a chaotic environment for myself and everyone around me. But I am learning how to continue having grace with myself. I continue to feel the depth of the experiences of life while not projecting all of those feelings onto my loved ones.
I’m taking time to tell myself I’m proud of myself for all of the tiny victories I experience throughout the week. Please do the same for yourselves. Don’t deny your feelings or push them away with alcohol and drugs, whether those are literal or figurative because we each have some “substance” we’re dependent upon at times. With every progressive step you take, trust yourself to make the best decisions for your mind, body, and spirit, more and more. There’s no rush to get anything right, so take it easy on yourself. Ease into trusting those around you more and create safe spaces for everyone. Have faith that you’re all going to be better after this is over, and easily let the negativity go. Sometimes it’s easier to choose our isolation and hurt. Sometimes we need those times to get all of the feelings out before we can move on. But never stay there. Always remember, “I am loving awareness.” (https://medium.com/swlh/the-most-powerful-meditation-to-ease-anxiety-and-fear-c93f86b8c57f)
Be well, my friends ♥